AS those of you that follow my blog, and have for sometime will have realised, My girl paulinia has been a central focus in my life, for some time. The truth of the matter is, we have in our own way found a accord that meets to our lives,demands on time and comfort. but also we have found that we have more common traits than was first thought. Indeed we have over time grown our feelings for each other, that stretch far beyond the constraints of the collar she wears. I would however take a moment to point out, that, though I kept those in check as best I could, while She was partnered. that restraint is now lifted.
This news is not a joy to be fair, for her partnership was to a woman I respected, a woman that taught me so very much and a woman that I felt I would happily call sister for the rest of my days. So to loose such a woman from my life has created a vacuum of sorts, but to loose it from Paulinias, is filled with other emotions and hurts, some that can be seen some that cant.
Those of you who have read my blog to date, will note reference’s to Paulinia, that crop up as they do in daily events. And as with all things we partner we fall we rise in our own way and time. I`m no stranger to partnerships. I`ve been in several in this time line. and none of them worked for me. This is not to say don`t do it, by the way I know of many that work their partnerships well, a certain gypsy and her “lucky” lucka come to mind! amongst so many others. But the keys here, at least from what little I gleaned from those that are partnered for a long term happily. is communication. And there it seems to have faltered in so many ways. Once that has failed the doom is sealed, and no one not even a ” temptress whore, with a hidden agenda, to takeover the whole of woman kind one relationship at a time ” will change that simple truth. When it stops working life becomes too short to continue to push a bad position,as much as love and trying and making sacrifices and changes will allow, simply put once the trust and communication is gone then nothing will change an inevitability.
Now I`ve highlighted my girl`s choice to leave a partnership for two reasons. One is obvious I feel for my girl and her emotional hurt and loss, does give me cause for concern. But thsi event also hammers home the choices I made ( if indeed it was not the cosmos making choices for me, and I was merely a tool for that !) inthe many partnerships that where entered into by me, with people I stupidly in some cases, blindly, in other cases, thought i`d be partnered with for good. I guess we all think this will be it for good , no need to move or find another once you have what you need, but the truth is that isn`t the case in all events. and to make a partnership of any kind work you need to talk a lot. And that talk between the people involved must be honest and open, and constant!
Now I can sit here and say that because I`ve been there done that and burned the tshirt too many times, to not understand the lesson that I learned. The One saving grace in my corner was the fact I an now married into a partnership, with many aspects and ratio`s that is constantly evolving, communicating and on every level the give and take of life is being fulfilled. It doesnt matter if you understand the in and out of what has happened, but it does matter that you take from this post a simple truth..
If you stop talking you lose, if you ignore the others in the party, if you simply dive your head into the sand of a n other topic. you will loose the woman, man, dragon, vampire demon or fairy you are partnered to.. and no crying about it will change it ..
till next time stay safe… and communicate…… and be loved Rose xxx