We have for a long time considered the possibility of recovering the past. some might say you cannot do so through various scientific statements and phycological theorems that would prove you cannot turn back time. But the truth is that we have not required to turn it back, to take back the moments of pain that both sides have dealt are in truth, like pouring sand back into the desert and calling it whole.
Choices made on half truth`s lead only to a misunderstanding the bigger the half truth is balanced the bigger the misunderstanding and that leads to the inevitability, which in itself leads to the point we are currently occupying and space and time.
whilst attempting to navigate to a point where some semblance of balance could be restored between us all , others with their lives and continued desires and wants and needs have taken steps which have hindered and in some cases wiped out all hope of those recovery moments being played out. I am not saying here that is wrong by any means though thought and care in the right place would have resolved issues before they had occurred, such a statement is overly ripe in hindsight and perhaps even impractical as agendas roll on.
We cannot stand still and the choices we make are not ours. these two statements I have made repeatedly and that those truths is in essence my standing point. Though I could be mistaken o pointing this out once more in the stream of things that Life will find a way to either work or balance or tip to the point of no return, such a statement is lost on the ears of those who have no idea what they mean.
How the next seven days unfold will determine my future inside and outside second life. I find the only true joys to be in being with petal and my owner Brace. and now all other lights are dim and to be completely honest if it was not for Brace and petal, I would without any doubt have ceased the world I live in .
The dagger in my heart and I feel in my back was served when I managed to log in and check on two profiles that have been on my mind since I entered the hospital. one was as expected blank . the other now proclaims the owner of that persona to have decided to drive the nail in deeper into the w bench of this debate. and in doing so she has for her own reasons which I respect, destroyed any hope of our reconciliation.
Therefore I have decided to step away from all but those that have supported me and mine. And place all trust faith and future choices to my owl. giving seven just days to resolve the issues ahead and behind us , merely differs from the normality of such events in the respect that I am now an owned slave of my owner. and as such She alone will have the final say in our future. I cannot allow the effects of the mountain to linger nor to involve or evolve with me as a party to them. nor will I allow them to hurt hinder or damage what little time I have left.
Postings from this point on may be sporadic at best. but within seven just days I will have allowed My Owner to make a choice that changes the entire outlook and possible destiny of Her slave, this blog, and all that I am. I trust her alone now to do so.
In faith love and sparkles Rose x