The aftermath of yet another remarkable cruise has once more spread its was warm charms on my blotter. As I sit with a coffee mug welded to my feel hand. Deciphering the events of yesterday is a game with no end. And yesterday was no exception.
Between explained the reasoning for enhanced education, testing a new track, and cruising the top less cruise. I managed, to really out do my usual self. Accomplishing both rekindling of a friendship I knew I had lost, and recovering a friendship I nearly gave away, to making a new friend. Not easy in my current situation. But certainly worthwhile.
Explaining why I am as moody as a sea witch (and yes I have cleaned that up!) Would to an outsider take half a day. Sufficient is my understanding that those of you that know have the decency not to push, and those of you who don’t, will ask. This means I can relax a little bit around some of those people I see regularly. For which I am both humbled and grateful!
A wise woman once said ” do not run on your path, for you will miss the gold been the cobblestones. ” it has taken me an awfully long time to understand the concept and I a sure there are still some aspects of the statement that I will in time uncover.
Ruining everything in a friendship is a terrible thing to do. No one will disagree with this statement, rebuilding a relationship of this nature, namely one I utterly destroyed through my own stupid ego driven pride. Is perhaps the hardest task. I am not proud to say yes I screwed up, but I am glad I managed to find the right time, and the understanding, and courage to allow me to fix it.
As the deadline draws nearer, for Friday, I find myself nor nervous by the day. Knowing the severity of the nightmares that I have in the pat encountered, gives me a platform or standard to expect. I doesn’t give me any joy or sense of relief whatsoever.
I take comfort in the overpowering care and sometimes emotionally charged company of two of the finest people I have ever met.
I refer of course to petal and my owner Brace. So now it is a constant battle to sleep. Till next post sparkles and love Rose x